No matter how far apart we are,
we're still under the same sky.
Don't forget that we're both
traveling to the place
we once dreamed of. ~Ayu

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I'm a little late this year...but the feeling's still strong. I miss you and think of you every fall.

My Favorite Season
The leaves falling to the ground
Could never match the color of your hair
The sun setting in the twilight
Could never compete with your inner fire

Your creativity was matched only
By your need for coffee first thing in the morning
And your kindness toward me
Was matched only by your zest for life

I miss you every night
When you'd tell me about your friends
And your unending pleas for coffee
Are remembered forever
The afternoons are sometimes lonely
Without Bishop and friends

Autumn, you were my mentor
My friend and pouncer
Hugs from you came without a reason
Forever on you'll be my favorite season.

Dear Life,

I'd like to go back about a year or three and rethink my decision to leave school. Ever since that particular life choice I've made shittier ones and shittier ones and I feel my life has been made crap with that turning point as the Domino that fell them all.

I would also enjoy a Wii Fit Plus and a Bissell Vacuum to replace the one that my moving company stole from me last winter. Thank you very much.

Love,
Me.

Anybody out there listen to classical music? I've been looking for some new stuff.

1. Yes, it's Twilight. I read all four books in about four days while working 9 hours a day...I fell in love with the love between Bella and Edward, no point in saying I wish I could feel remotely like that some time in my life.

2. Robert Pattinson was indeed the perfect Edward and Kristen Stewart was a pretty good Bella as well. I'm really happy they seem to be making all the books into movies...although I'm kind of heart broken that they seem to be rushing through it. The next movie New Moon is being released in theaters November 23,2009 and they just started filming a couple weeks ago...that doesn't seem like a long enough time...especially since well...the book is pretty complex as far as emotions go...like a yoyo. Also mildly disturbed on how the fourth book Breaking Dawn is going to be made into a movie that will be okay for younger audiances...there's a couple pretty brutal scenes and while I want the movies to follow the books as much as possible...I hope they make it R.

3. I'm also really sad that Stephanie Meyer is probably never finishing the "5th" book Midnight Son, as it was illegally leaked online. It's the first book from Edward's view...and after reading the copy she herself posted on her site - the first twelve chapters anyway...I can look back at Twilight and understand the entire story so much better from a complete 360 angle of everybody.

4. The song is Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. While I really like the video (and actually the band's video too but they mentioned something on the actual youtube video for THEM about not having it embedded anywhere so...I figure this is good.)

Also I'd like to mentioned - I'm truly not fangirling about Twilight. I do love the series - I really enjoyed reading it which is something I don't always experience reading...I'll read a book out of obligation or boredom, but I literally yearned to continue every part of this series as I was reading. I like the story, I like the characters, Edward, Jasper, Alice, Bella, Esme...they're all really vivid. Especially Edward and Bella though (durhur) and while it is nice to read with a gorgeous male image in my brain...I think I prolly would have "fallen" in a literary sense for Edward Cullen even without the movie...The Old fashioned and unique attitude doesn't really exist anymore and I think it's really sad...bu that's how it is with a lot of fictional characters. When I found out Meyer's inspiration for Edward was actually Mr. Darcy, and Mr. Rochester it all made much more sense why I liked him so much. Pride and Prejudice and Jane Eyre are wonderful books and I really should read them again sometime soon. I'm just not sure where my mom put them xD;

Anyways...

Walmarts going ok, can't say I love it but who really loves being a cashier and dealing with crabby people who are in a rush? The Fiance was actually not able to do anything with the Air Force...apparently the economic crises going on at the moment has pushed Enlistment (especially in the Air Force) to an all time high and the Air Force in particular is not enlisting at this time. Since he'd already gone for the Navy, and that fizzled, the only two options left were Marines and Army...which weren't really options for him. So he's now working in a Dell // Gateway Factory, pushing a button on an assembly line to restart computers as a way of testing to make sure they boot up properly. I can completely understand not only why this job pays roughly 10 dollars an hour, because anybody who actually knows computers and how to build them, would go insane after 10 hours of not only doing nothing productive but doing the same one button move over and over again....but $10 an hour is $10 an hour.


Also...

I'm teaching myself how to play this on the piano:

from "A History of Nursery Rhymes" by Percy B. Green

A Man of Words and Not Deeds

A man of words and not of deeds
Is like a garden full of weeds
And when the weeds begin to grow
It's like a garden full of snow
And when the snow begins to fall
It's like a bird upon the wall
And when the bird away does fly
It's like an eagle in the sky
And when the sky begins to roar
It's like a lion at the door
And when the door begins to crack
It's like a stick across your back
And when your back begins to smart
It's like a penknife in your heart
And when your heart begins to bleed
You're dead, and dead, and dead indeed

Breathe you out, breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
You’re the one who could’ve been
In my eyes, see it oh so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears

I try to put it in the past
Hold onto myself and don’t look back

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker everyday
Watch me now and I’ll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you

Even when I cross the line
It’s like a lie I’ve told a thousand times

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

Out from under
from under
from under
from under

And part of me still believes when you say you’re gonna stick around
And part of me still believes we can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let’s just say goodbye
Forever

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
And I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
And I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m Out From Under

From under, from under
From Under

As I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
Have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
To know that beautiful things
Don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
To know this beautiful place
Isn't everything they say

I heard, that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered


You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
Underneath these lights
Back down in Hollywood
On the boulevard
The dead comes back to life

To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't
You'll know


They say, that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

Baptized in the river
Baptized in the river
I wanna be delivered

Baptized in the river
I wanna be delivered

I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered